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Last Sunday was October 12, this day was a special day not only for me but for the whole family. It was our Dad’s birthday. How old is he? Well I don’t know either, actually I’m looking for his birth certificate to look when he was born. My mom is not here also while I’m writing this blog. The only thing that I know is he already stopped aging since June 4, 2004, when he died of colon cancer. Oh, what a really sorrow past. I already published a blog about the longest day in my life, the day when my dad died, it’s titled “Eternal Memory”. Anyway I don’t want to write about that regretful past anymore.
In addition, I thought I will have a dream about him the night before his birthday but I never dreamt of anything, which was not a new thing for me because since his death I only got a few dreams about him. Dreams that I wish didn’t end, those were the longest nights that I really love in my whole life. To be with him again, with us, completely. I don’t know what’s the meaning of him not in our dreams during his birthday, because this is the day that I am expecting him to be there, I don’t expect him to visit me in my dreams on November 1 of course, I’m not sure if it will be really him then. Well maybe, the reason why is he doesn’t want us to miss him that much. I must say to you Daddy, that even though you’re not visiting me or every one of us in our dreams lately, we really miss you, badly.
My mom cooked the all-time favorite pansit and my eldest sister (Ate) bought a “Brazo de Mercedes” which is daddy’s favorite. We celebrated his birthday as if he’s with us while we were eating. Even if there weren’t lots of food we still enjoyed his birthday, and I know that he understands our situation financially. Along with he knows that our love for him is unconditional. The next day, I woke up early to go to the market to buy the ingredients of the viands that I’ll be cooking. I cooked “pinakbet” at lunch and cooked his favorite “Pininyahang Manok” for our dinner. When I was cooking, I remembered his favorite fish which is “Dalagang Bukid” which I regret because I forgot to buy that, I just recalled that it’s his partner to pinakbet. One thing that I also remembered while cooking is “tahong” it’s was also his favorite, he used to grill it and/or make it as a soup. I told it to Mom and she said that she’ll buy those things next week as an extension of Dad’s birthday. Of course, I’m the only one who’ll cook for him, because there’s no one in our household who can cook as delicious as mine (bwahaha!). I also recalled that during my childhood, when we wake up in the morning we ran down in the stairs and look for our parents or yayas to see what we have for breakfast, I remember every morning on the dining table there are 5 covered cups of “taho”, besides to our breakfast, I remember him telling me every morning that “it’s nutritious, it has a lot of calcium for your bones to become stronger and for you to grow taller”. And maybe that was the reason why “taho” became one of my favorites.
Someone’s passing away is heartache, especially when that someone is very close to you. When that someone has a living blood running through your veins. Your father, your dad, buddy, friend, and mentor. Dad, having you as my father is a gratitude. Being with you for only 15 years was a great and unforgettable experience. I could be better if you’re here. I will look up to you until my dying day. I love you and I’ll always will. We miss you sOoOooo much!
NJay081
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In addition, I thought I will have a dream about him the night before his birthday but I never dreamt of anything, which was not a new thing for me because since his death I only got a few dreams about him. Dreams that I wish didn’t end, those were the longest nights that I really love in my whole life. To be with him again, with us, completely. I don’t know what’s the meaning of him not in our dreams during his birthday, because this is the day that I am expecting him to be there, I don’t expect him to visit me in my dreams on November 1 of course, I’m not sure if it will be really him then. Well maybe, the reason why is he doesn’t want us to miss him that much. I must say to you Daddy, that even though you’re not visiting me or every one of us in our dreams lately, we really miss you, badly.
My mom cooked the all-time favorite pansit and my eldest sister (Ate) bought a “Brazo de Mercedes” which is daddy’s favorite. We celebrated his birthday as if he’s with us while we were eating. Even if there weren’t lots of food we still enjoyed his birthday, and I know that he understands our situation financially. Along with he knows that our love for him is unconditional. The next day, I woke up early to go to the market to buy the ingredients of the viands that I’ll be cooking. I cooked “pinakbet” at lunch and cooked his favorite “Pininyahang Manok” for our dinner. When I was cooking, I remembered his favorite fish which is “Dalagang Bukid” which I regret because I forgot to buy that, I just recalled that it’s his partner to pinakbet. One thing that I also remembered while cooking is “tahong” it’s was also his favorite, he used to grill it and/or make it as a soup. I told it to Mom and she said that she’ll buy those things next week as an extension of Dad’s birthday. Of course, I’m the only one who’ll cook for him, because there’s no one in our household who can cook as delicious as mine (bwahaha!). I also recalled that during my childhood, when we wake up in the morning we ran down in the stairs and look for our parents or yayas to see what we have for breakfast, I remember every morning on the dining table there are 5 covered cups of “taho”, besides to our breakfast, I remember him telling me every morning that “it’s nutritious, it has a lot of calcium for your bones to become stronger and for you to grow taller”. And maybe that was the reason why “taho” became one of my favorites.
Someone’s passing away is heartache, especially when that someone is very close to you. When that someone has a living blood running through your veins. Your father, your dad, buddy, friend, and mentor. Dad, having you as my father is a gratitude. Being with you for only 15 years was a great and unforgettable experience. I could be better if you’re here. I will look up to you until my dying day. I love you and I’ll always will. We miss you sOoOooo much!
NJay081
101408 / 5:40 pm/ @ home
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